i need to call her and tell her i need more and that if she wants to continue me being her constant friend, she better realize that i deserve more. and i need to tell her other things, as well.

that's really on my mind. and it bugs me that i let it get this far.

in other news:

natalie and i went to boston yesterday. it was the first time we've been to the harvard t-station since jayme's death. i felt a little apprehensive, jumping at any loud noises that coincidentally occurred while we were waiting for the train.

i called garrison once again and no reply. if he doesn't hang out with me soon i will have to destruct him.

today is sunday. today is the day i get my hair cut. elissa said she'd do it, but i called and no answer. i left a message, and if she doesn't get back to me (i haven't talked to her much since regan's been in the picture) i'll go to supercuts or some random hair place to get it snipped off. and then i'm bleaching it and dying it pink once again. obviously.

ami is having a party, i think. like. a month-late graduation party. and my parents are supposed to go as well. it's 12.39 and they aren't home and i'm not sure where i'm supposed to go.

upsetting news:

my flashing heart watch accidentally got worn in the shower today. and now it's all foggy and won't light up and i'm a little too bummed about it.

jeremy's away message:

(i = smitten with you.

time to sleep.

time to think of you.

time to think of you and me together.

all i need is to think of you, because in you i see us together being everything we ever needed. i need your touch to kindle this dream i have, because for now, all i see is you in my dreams.

you are kindling my world. thank you.)

anything else that i need to relay?

my sunroof in my car won't close. good thing i don't think we are expecting rain for a couple of days.

i'm off to fix some leaks.

xo.

prove me wrong.