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2003-01-09 - 7:21 p.m.
running on empty, been everywhere in the past couple of days with hardly any sleep but full of good company. i've mended, i feel, those things that were pulling apart from me and i've done my best to keep it together. i was considering looking through "for lease" ads in the newspaper, calling as if i am inquiring to be a future tenant just to meet interesting people to talk to. mind you, i talk to interesting people already, i just. want a bit of an adventure. i've been back and forth on a lot of things. for example: wanting to tell someone you like them (because this is it, this is all we have, live this moment as your last) and deciding to do nothing (act casual, it'll come to you if you stop looking for it, take it one day at a time) both are viable choices, but fucking confusing as to which is more progressive. i'm just so tired of being responsible. i wish it were in my nature to take myself by surprise every once in a while.
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